Monday, May 16, 2011

Penmachine's "The last post"

On May 4th 2011, Derek Miller, writer/editor/blogger, posted his last post on his blog. Miller had been blogging since 2000 on the website In 2007, he was diagnosed with stage 4 colorectal cancer and he often blogged about his cancer and treatment.

In a post entitled "The endgame", in November 2010, Miller writes about the discussing his prognosis with his physician:

It's good that Thursday, November 25, wasn't Thanksgiving Day in Canada (it was in the U.S.), because that's when I found out. Doctors are notoriously reluctant to predict life expectancy, and for good reason—they're often wrong. But, with my wife Air in the exam room at the B.C. Cancer Agency with me, I drew it out of my oncologist, Dr. Kennecke.

"Do you expect I'll still be alive to visit you here in two years?" I asked, straight up.

"Honestly, no," he said.

There was more to it, of course, but that was the moment. It was no surprise.

He ends the post "I'm not ready to die just yet, but I'm ready to prepare for it. Off we go."

Miller died on May 3rd, 2011. He wrote his last post before he died and had friends post "The last post" on May 4th. It begins "Here it is. I'm dead, and this is my last post to my blog."

It's a sweet but sad read. Miller talks about his wife and two daughters, his experience dying, his views on the afterlife. Miller is a very talented writer and I'm sure this last post will be cherished by his family. What is sad is that the comments on the post really focused on Miller's views of the afterlife (he doesn't believe in one) rather than his beautiful last message to the one's he loved.

The world, indeed the whole universe, is a beautiful, astonishing, wondrous place. There is always more to find out. I don't look back and regret anything, and I hope my family can find a way to do the same.

What is true is that I loved them. Lauren and Marina, as you mature and become yourselves over the years, know that I loved you and did my best to be a good father.

Airdrie, you were my best friend and my closest connection. I don't know what we'd have been like without each other, but I think the world would be a poorer place. I loved you deeply, I loved you, I loved you, I loved you.

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